Not quite so shaky

Well things have improved a small amount.
But still stuck between a rock and hard place. But the rock has budged a little bit.
Now I'm finding I have a hard time pulling my body out of bed in the morning. I think that I need to make some changes to my excerise schedule because I'm not sleeping well. It's starting to effect everything. I dread having to go to work. To do work I don't really enjoy. But I've commited to work until husband's done school.
Newfoundland might not be such a distance dream!! We are going to look into school there :)
Which is totally exciting. But I will have to keep y'all updated on that

Now for the big news! I got my ears pierced for the first time in my life. It hurt like heck, and don't let anyone tell you different. But I'm happy I actually did it. My little sister also got it done, and she was much much braver then me. I was tearing up and hyperventilating. But it wasn't as bad as shots used to at the dentist.

Neways I'm on lunch right now, and I need to start writing my Christmas letter :)
Thanks to everyone for the encouraging comments.

Wisp of Love

my love is a wisp of smoke
fast disapearing.
no traces that I was once here
taking up that space beside you,
snuff out by your unkindness...
maybe the next person will
let me shine with them

just love me, please protect me
my love is all I have
it's pitifully small, but if you
cherish it, it will grow

this is my hearts cry,
please hear it, don't let it extinguish.
to let love die, might break my heart
into a million tiny pieces

only God could repair me after that.

thoughts

So much I would love to write, but they are dark and secret thoughts. This blog is so wide open. I need a friend to share with, to help me understand this time. I am clinging to the verse "and this too shall pass".
Right my wanderlust is kicking in, I want to be traveling to new places and seeing new faces. I've been contemplating Newfoundland, because the Husband has a friend there that is dear to his heart. But I don't know if it would be possible before he finishes school.

I want to be on a grand adventure. Not strapped to a decent paying job with benefits, because that would be the sensible thing to do. Some days I hate being SENSIBLE.. But thats another topic in itself.


On to happier things, I'm burning Plum & Cognac candles, and I love them. They are this deep rich purple color. I will take some photos and post them.
I'm sorry this post is so downhearted. But it's just the really life me right now.

Photos of the Niece

Because Moriah requested photos, here they are!

Penny, Jewel and Trish before Cora was born.

Cora a few days off with the roses I bought her.
Having her First Bath

Sleeping with Daddy

With teddy bear

Cora With Grandpa (Her daddy's dad)
Big Feet that are just like Daddys
Sleeping with Teddy!

More to come after I give the adorable little dress I bought for Christmas!

Small Catch up

Last night The Husband & I took a night off from life, and walked to Timmys for some chili (His new fav food) after getting me a Starbucks. Then we meandered over to one of my favorite hangouts "the library." There I curled up with a cute book called Gabriel's Angel. Which I finished last night before drifting off to sleep. But I found another book which is called the Scarlet Cord, and it's supposed to be a Christian book, according to the sticker.
I'm looking forward to reading it on my mini vacation this weekend.

I've been super busy with PartyLite which is great in sales, but hard on life in general. Because of the full time job, which is starting to drive me bonkers.. I hate warranty. I just can't get my mind wrapped around all the little things.. I am trying so hard not to let people down, but I can't handle it. They don't seem to understand that. I think I'm slowly running out of steam. Today I'm going to try and tie up a few loose ends and find something to wear to the wedding.

Sometimes I wish life was simpler. I can't even explain that sentence without divulging the gory details, of things that are best left unsaid.


I found the cutest comic blog. It's called Being Five, Do check it out.
www.beingfive.com

I think I shall start an I wish list, and then try and reorder my time to actually do the things I want to do.
I WISH:

• More time to read
• My room looked livable not lived in.
• I had friends to go for coffee with and have adventures with.
• My husband would do his end of the bargain per laundry and tidying.
• I made my own lunches, instead of buying them.
• I was 20 lbs lighter
• I wasn't so critical of myself and the ones I love.
• I actually accomplished the small things.
• I could go back to Victoria for a few weeks.
  

This list could go on.
But I am done for one day.
Till next time.

I'M AN AUNTIE

Cora Lynn has arrived!!!!!

At 4:18 this morning my sister had a baby girl!

6lb 8ozs and 20 inches long.

I will post pics as soon I get them!