This day brings the most unexplainable pain I have ever experienced.
I can not and will not start to explain it.
This day that I dreamed to be a happy reminder for years to come has become a burden to me.
One that threatens to sink me like the Titanic.
I will not be surrendered to the depression that is always looming right now.
I will say that MY GOD WILL MAKE ALL THINGS BEAUTIFUL IN HIS TIME.
I wanted to write beautiful words in tribute to the past.
But I can't.
Not right now, it's all too painful and fresh in my mind.
Maybe another time.
If you are reading this,
I love you. and all the unspoken things I haven't said and will never say in a forum this public.